True Beauty

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What’s beauty to you? To me it’s all that comes from nature. All that is created by the Divine. As, humans we try to recreate what we find in nature and integrate it into our daily lives. In fashion, we choose colors and textures found in nature. We design our homes to incorporate natural woods and stones. It’s easy to look out and see beauty. The true test is when one looks inside and sees the same beauty. If you are religious or spiritual then you have heard that we are made in God’s likeness, yet we tend to judge ourselves so harshly. One of most awesome creations of all is our bodies, they are the most amazing and intricate vessels on earth. Our bodies house our souls, the essence of the Divine. In all societies we give the utmost respect to religious and sacred houses (churches, temples, mosques, etc…). Why shouldn’t we treat ourselves and others with the same respect? What ever your beliefs are I hope you can look at yourself and see how truly amazing YOU are.
In this lifetime I strive to learn how to love all others with their perfect imperfections. I start this journey by learning how to love myself as I am. Then, to love all others as I love myself.

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Say what!

Missed the boat

While we’re on the subject
Could we change the subject now?
I was knocking on your ears
Don’t worry, you were always out
Looking towards the future
We were begging for the past
Well, we know we had the good things
But those never seemed to last
Oh, please just last

First verse of Missed the boat by Modest Mouse

For the last two or three days I’ve been out of sorts. I was feeling confused, angry, and a little bitter. These feelings came up so fast and furious and I had no clue what sparked these feelings. So, I started talking to the people closest to me about these weird, out of place feelings. We were baffled by what could have triggered this bout of melancholy.
Finally, it dawned on me I’m mourning my old self. You see, when you have cursed yourself with labels like lazy, lack of follow through, unfocused, afraid of commitment, etc. then turn around and put the all the pieces of the puzzle together and actively pursue your dreams. You are putting to rest a part of yourself you have become so comfortable with it feels like part of you has died. I should have realized this sooner since I’ve brought these same issues to others attention recently. Truthfully, I’m just grateful that I was blessed with the insight to actually figure it out. (I really thought I was having Starbucks withdrawals.)
I’m no longer a fan of feeling like crap. The old me would have written it off as PMS and allowed it to consume me. Now, I try to live in the present, one day at a time and take time to appreciate the simple luxuries in my life. For example; i’m in good health, i enjoyed a hot meal today, and I was able to see the smiles on my children’s faces.
If you get into a funk take some time to count your blessings. I may not have everything I want but I sure have everything I need.

Btw I got my fun in the sun today! Took the kids to the local water spray park. What a perfect day!

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It’s Sabotage!

“I can’t stand it, I know you planned it
I’m a’ set straight, this Watergate
I can’t stand rocking when I’m in here
’cause your crystal ball ain’t so crystal clear
So while you sit back and wonder why
I got this fuckin’ thorn in my side
Oh my god, it’s a mirage
I’m tellin’ y’all it’s sabotage” Sabotage by Beastie Boys

Hello Beautiful Beings,

Yes, I’m starting today off with the Beastie Boys. Much respect to Adam “MCA” Yauch.

So, last night I decided to go into my records and see what the issue du jour, that’s been beating at my door in need of some attention. I was hoping for something like, show more affection to your kids or eat healthier something simple you know. No, I get you must deal with your fear of yourself! Well, hot damn! Talk about your all- inclusive issues…. This is some BS! I don’t want to look at this atm (yes, I’m a master at procrastinating). So, after a mini freakout I asked my Masters, Teachers, and Loved ones for some clarity on this issue. It turns out I’ve been self sabotaging! Shocking at first who in their right mind self sabotages.(I’m lying to myself this problem has been evident for a while.) I mean if I was late to a Dr’s appointment or a job interview it was not my fault. My favorite excuse, the morning rush hour traffic is always the worst! Why would any one expect you to be on time for a nine o’clock appointment? I am late for everything! (even for my own wedding…). This, my friends, is just the tip of the iceberg. Unsurprisingly, with enough looking within, I found I have a vast array of self sabotage/ self punishment issues in my background. Just to list a few, high school dropout, potential contestant for the Biggest Loser, and walked in the shoes of an active Alcoholic. Oh, and my latest act of chopping off my mid back length of hair in the name of going “Natural”. As freeing as it is to be “Natural” I sent myself into a year long depression and gained 40 pounds. (Thats enough with the examples, I’m sure you get the point.) This insanity must stop!

So, my first step of working through this issue I seem to have with myself is to write it down. Hence this post…

Knowledge is Power, the more you look into yourself the more familiar you become with the signs and symptoms of the acts that are detrimental to your well being. The more you examine yourself the easier it is to recognize the toxic patterns. Eventually, you are able to identify the thought before the act.

Second, I choose to accept that I tend to self sabotage/punish. What am I going to do punish myself more because I’m too hard on myself. No, that would be just silly. I will pray on it and then give it up. Don’t dwell or it becomes counterproductive.

Lastly, I am going to give myself a pat on the back for even facing such a terrifying thing as setting myself up for failure because I fear the success I’m capable of achieving.

Have faith that your soul knows from right and wrong. Get rid of what does not serve the higher good.

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It is, what it is…

Love can mean so many different things. To so many different folk. The only thing I know for sure is it’s not what I thought it should be like. I love fairy tales with happy endings and Romantic comedies!
For the first 33 years of my life, I thought all that feel good with amazing sexual chemistry was what love was. As I have jumped (or pushed) into my journey of enlightenment, I realize what a crock of crap my former belief of love was. I mean I was attempting to live life as characters created from the minds and personalities devise by the inhabitants of a little town we call Hollywood. I really set myself up for failure! The saddest part about this is that I’m not the only one. Human beings tend to learn by example whether that example is positive or negative. We as mass tend to go with the flow. From the beginning we choose what was perceived to be the right thing because it was the mainstream thing, because a chosen few dictated it was the best for all. Ok, I’m off on a tangent. So, back to the Love thang. My first lesson in love was the Disney Princess stories, then it was the Disney Princess movies. Which led me into my first real romance it mimicked Beauty and the Beast, without the happy ending but the right ending, I was blessed with two beautiful children. Seven years later I’m still learning valuable lessons…

I have looked into myself for the answers about love and found only that I’m worthy of it and deserve it. I have found some great books on love. I really liked the definition of love in the book The Road Less Traveled by M. Scot Peck, “I define love thus: “The will to extend one’s self for the purpose of nurturing one’s own or another’s spiritual growth.” Love is so much more than romantic feelings. Lastly, my guru told me in as so many words: When one loves, they love with all of themselves, this includes their faults. I have a jealous nature so when I love, I don’t only include all my positive traits but also I include my negative traits. I’m comfortable in saying my understanding of love grows as I grow as a being, this is all that matters.

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Your resident Psychic is open for business!

Kimberley here! I’m happy to be sharing via this blog the amazing experiences of the metaphysical world with whomever stumbles upon this page. This has been one of the tasks I’ve been putting off for a while. Attempting to put a lable on myself is proving to be a chore. I’m so many things mother, daughter, a clairvoyant, an Empath, care giver, student, procrastinator, lover of life… This blog will be about my journey into enlightenment. I have so much I would love to shine a light and illuminate for other, who have found themselves on their path to enlightenment.

I will be posting as often as possible. I’m so excited to meet and get to know others of there personal growth journey. I will be doing a reading for a lucky reader weekly.

Love and Light,
Kimberley

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