Give and Take Part I

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This is a poem written by a very wise and loving friend of mine Ameeta.
I hope you are as touched by this piece of writing as I am.
Much Love and Light!

Note to Readers:
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2. As you will see this poem raises a question but does not discuss answers, only inviting you to contemplate the question, if you so choose, and to
travel your own journey with it.
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Here’s a powerful question
that transformed
my life
ever since
it began
asking itself
inside me

Would you like
to be
on the receiving end
of what you give?

Not a new question
but still radical
always relevant
and profoundly revealing

Too simple for you?
look again
perhaps you might
tap its potential
this time

Would you like
to be
on the receiving end
of what you give?

Would you like
to be
on the receiving end
of how you give
how much you give
when you give
why you give
and to whom you give?

This question inside
has been relentless
not permitting me
to rest on
a single rosy instance
when my answer
might be yes

For it is not interested
in yes
It is more concerned
with no
when the truth is no
even if
we find one no
for a hundred yesses

When this question
falls on fertile ground
it is seen to be
completely non-judgmental
driven by love
love of truth and freedom

For we are never
more empowered
or empowering
than when we are
in truth

So thanks to a courage
from grace beyond
when we can be honest enough
to come upon that no
and explore it
without fear
and with curiosity
the question opens us
to depths
unimaginable

What we see
with eyes thus opened
humbles us
and brings us to our knees

And yet the question
may stay
and keep asking itself
till mind opens
and heart explodes
and time and space
collapse
so that giving
is not other than receiving
and giver
is not other than receiver

And still the question
may stay
as a loving reminder
of our truth
transforming us
inside and out
one instance at a time.

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Ameeta
ameetak@gmail.com

Purging old ways

I am, whom I’m suppose to be in this moment.

When my mind is in fast forward, always attempting to be in the next moment I tend to forget my true purpose. To live.

My daughter said to me today “I can’t wait till it’s summer! How about you?” I replied “Yes, I can wait.” She gave me a look like I was crazy. So, I went on to say “If I wish today away, the faster summer would come and then go. Before you know it will be winter again” she seemed to get what I was saying. I wasn’t always like this, I was the kid that would wish/pray for the last day of school on the first.

Accepting who, what and where I am in the moment allows me to be present. If I’m present I can fully embrace the gift that life is.

Here is an excerpt from one of my favorite books:

“And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation—some fact of my life —unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God’s world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life’s terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concen- trate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.”
Acceptance Was the Answer chapter 16 of The Big Book

http://www.aa.org/bigbookonline/en_theystoppedintime16.pdf

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The force is strong…

The need to meditate has been strong recently. Avoidance has been the name of my game for some time now. Taking the time to meditate on issues in my life has been a Godsend. Removing irrational fears from my thought process has helped me move forward. I also found that if I sit quite and open myself up to the universe my possibilities are endless. I joined a 21 day meditation challenge by Deepak Chopra. This has ensured that I make the effort to sit and just be.

When I meditate I take myself to beautiful places I have already been or would love to visit.

Give yourself the gift of just being and take a rest from doing.

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These beautiful pictures were taken by my sister in law at the family vacation spot.

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The last two are pictures of my birth place Scotland.

True Beauty

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What’s beauty to you? To me it’s all that comes from nature. All that is created by the Divine. As, humans we try to recreate what we find in nature and integrate it into our daily lives. In fashion, we choose colors and textures found in nature. We design our homes to incorporate natural woods and stones. It’s easy to look out and see beauty. The true test is when one looks inside and sees the same beauty. If you are religious or spiritual then you have heard that we are made in God’s likeness, yet we tend to judge ourselves so harshly. One of most awesome creations of all is our bodies, they are the most amazing and intricate vessels on earth. Our bodies house our souls, the essence of the Divine. In all societies we give the utmost respect to religious and sacred houses (churches, temples, mosques, etc…). Why shouldn’t we treat ourselves and others with the same respect? What ever your beliefs are I hope you can look at yourself and see how truly amazing YOU are.
In this lifetime I strive to learn how to love all others with their perfect imperfections. I start this journey by learning how to love myself as I am. Then, to love all others as I love myself.

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Say what!

Missed the boat

While we’re on the subject
Could we change the subject now?
I was knocking on your ears
Don’t worry, you were always out
Looking towards the future
We were begging for the past
Well, we know we had the good things
But those never seemed to last
Oh, please just last

First verse of Missed the boat by Modest Mouse

For the last two or three days I’ve been out of sorts. I was feeling confused, angry, and a little bitter. These feelings came up so fast and furious and I had no clue what sparked these feelings. So, I started talking to the people closest to me about these weird, out of place feelings. We were baffled by what could have triggered this bout of melancholy.
Finally, it dawned on me I’m mourning my old self. You see, when you have cursed yourself with labels like lazy, lack of follow through, unfocused, afraid of commitment, etc. then turn around and put the all the pieces of the puzzle together and actively pursue your dreams. You are putting to rest a part of yourself you have become so comfortable with it feels like part of you has died. I should have realized this sooner since I’ve brought these same issues to others attention recently. Truthfully, I’m just grateful that I was blessed with the insight to actually figure it out. (I really thought I was having Starbucks withdrawals.)
I’m no longer a fan of feeling like crap. The old me would have written it off as PMS and allowed it to consume me. Now, I try to live in the present, one day at a time and take time to appreciate the simple luxuries in my life. For example; i’m in good health, i enjoyed a hot meal today, and I was able to see the smiles on my children’s faces.
If you get into a funk take some time to count your blessings. I may not have everything I want but I sure have everything I need.

Btw I got my fun in the sun today! Took the kids to the local water spray park. What a perfect day!

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